You are choosing not to walk out of the cell. That’s not to blame you. We been prisoners so long out thinking is damaged. Sometimes God heals that instantly, but sometimes He uses a process. Either way, when the Son sets us free, we are free indeed! Growing up in Christ is learning to live free- it’s understanding our identity! My last name meant more to me when I was older because I connected it with my identity. I didn’t like it before because I was embarrassed, but that was immaturity