summer camp testomany

Intro/Exposer

I want you to image a six year at a relatives house alone on a computer. There playing flash games online, looking thew the computers setting, pulling up saved photos, messing around on the computer. Then unintentionally, some how that six year old pulls up pornography onto the computer screen.

The six year old is confused, they don't know how this got here, or what it really is. At the age they have vague idea of what sex is but they don't really know.

They don't understand why its on the computer. They get scared they don't know what to do. So they turn off the computer and they do not tell anyone. And they to act like nothing happen.

But something did happen. They were sexualized at a very young age. and a war had started started, a war in there mind.

That six year old, that child was me, that was my first experiunes with pornography on my grandparents computer in 2006.

Tonight I’m going to be shareing my testimoy becuse sadly my first exposer was not abnormal or rare. Millions of people have a vary similar experience. And there are people in this room right now that this applies too.

This is probaly already unconfutable of us already so everyone take a deep breath in hold in let it out shack are arms, are we good.

This can be unconfutable but that means were alive and for us to grow spirulay we have to get unconfutable some times. Im uncofutable so ask if you will allow me to be vulrible with you tonight. This is a topic that the body of christ need to not shie away from. we need to talke it head on.

Addition/acsees

So as I said that was my first exposer but it was far from my last. I was adicted to pornogafy for over 10 years from the 12-22

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My the very start of Gen Z, the acesses to this matrial is way driffrent. then previose generations, before the wide avaliblity of the internet.

To get expliset matiral. You would have to get out of your hosue interact with someone show an ID and pay for some from of physical media. It was a lot harder to acsidently stumbel across it.

Thats not how it is anymore. You have it in your pocket, anything, anywere anytime compilty free anonimusly.

And the iPhone came out when i was 7 and i did not get somesort of smart device that young but my class mates did. and thew elimenty school, on the play ground, or in the class room when the teachers were not look. my fellow students woud pull it up on there devices and show people.

That went i turly understood what it was and when I was. I did not get a smart phone untill i was in high school but i did get an ipod touch at 12 years old and thats when it turned form a couple of exspoers to a full blow adiction. becuse now i had unfillederd acsess.

Church/apoligetics

Heres the the I knew it was wrong I grew up in church I new watching this stuff was a sin Jesus says on the sermon on the mount if you look with lust your commiting adultry in your hart. I new Gods word says it thew out that its wrong.

So I justified it, This was my little thing over here people are doing way worse then i am some people are having acule sex, Did God really says its wrong. did he say it.

And So I hide this adiction going into middle school. and at this time my family stopped going to church. I dont have enough time to list and explain everything that happend but my faimly experised a lot of church hurt.

I know the term church hurt is treand to say and people use it to describe things that are not but by family and extended family was turly hurt.

The event that caused my eminte family to stop going was that they dropped my moms church membership and did over a leter. agin dont have time to get into the details but they did not like that my mom her mom my grandma at other churches in the nursery. they also started speadind the rummer my parents were devorced and people that did not go to the church thoght it was true.

So we stopped going I continined with my adiction and I started to resule with if God was real and if chrianity was true I had teachers tell me in class that God is not real

I remember looking at genesis and trying to haminize it with what i was toght in school about evloution and millions of years. the ideas were backwords.

Evolution says reptiles came first then birds came later. The bible says birds came first on the 5th day of creation and repilse came later on the 6th. Evlotion says death broght man into the world, The bible says man broght death into the world.

So I started a quest to see what belef sistem was true. And i was going to look at every belef sysem there is, Chrisanty, islam, morminusm, budisum, athisum, ect

What i did was study the evedance for each belif system, objections the every belif syestm and the responses to those belif systems.

And I came to the conclution that christanty cant not be true. That the bible his reliable, and that what it says happened, happened.

Even thogh i new this, i still was living in unrepented hibiual sin, and still made the same exuses for my adition to pornogfay. It could be way weres, ill stop when i get married, did God really say its that bad

depolyment/sin

So I contined on after high school I joined the Army Natinal gurd and in 2021 we depoyed to Poland and it was there were the atition to pornogafy got way weres, it was alredy bad but got to the point it was(again not to get to graphic) but there was times it was over dozen times a day and when i say adicted i mean it. there were times i chould not stop even when i did not want to do it.

But it was not just the pornogafy that was getting worse other sexual sin was as well. I whent to strip clubs and I lost my verginty and I made the smae exuses

darkness/repentense

quitting/alter call