goodness and faithfulness of God

goodness of God

Testimony:

introduction!

once i got sick i lost all hope. I was depressed, weak, and felt worthless. Being sick was the one thing i thought, at the time, was the worst thing that could ever happened. It ruined my career in the navy, i felt like my kids saw me as weak and sick, and t top it off i was moved from where i was going to make rank to Gulfport.

i didn’t see God working at this time. all i saw was shame, pain, and weakness.

Before this i had accepted Christ, but never really followed His will in my life. I took evangelism classes back i the day but went about things my own way, never truly listening to the Holy Spirit.

when i got sick i got mad at God, i neve stopped believing in Him i was just a bitter person, seeking retribution for what i was going through.

then my wife said she wanted to start going to church again, and i began trying to look past the sickness in my life and try to find what God’s will really was in my life. I started going listening to podcast, like frank turek, cliff knectle, and others like them. In those moments i remembered how many times God had reached out to me through other people telling me He had something greater in this life than what i was seeking. times of being told i was going to be a warrior for Jesus throughout my life, the same message, rang out in my mind. this time i decided to listen, and started going to school for ministry.

during this time i got sicker, multiple hospital stays, but i tried to face each with prayer and worship knowing that no matter what God had me. and one day they told me there was no medice that could help me anymore, so i continued to pray do my homework for school. during that time the Holy Spirit made His presence known to me, by showing me peace and joy even in the midst of pain and suffering. I feel asleep listening to worship. the next morning a Dr. walked in the room and said “I'm going to save your life”.

Once i placed my trust in God He showed me the areas He had been working the whole time, i came home safe during war, He blessed me with a wife that kept me on track as much as possible, and He sent messengers to tell me what He was doing even when i wasn’t listening.

Now i see how God directed my path to what He knew would fulfill my life. My kids came to christ, my wife is digging so much deeper than ever before, my family doesn’t feel broken by sickness and depression. no now i had hope. God was always faithful to me even when i wasn’t faithful to him, God was always good to me even when i turned my back on Him.