Doubts

I sit and gaze across the sea

And hear a sound inside of me

Like crashing waves upon a shore

The sound of doubts I’ve had before

The doubts that always come and go

Like the tides that ebb and flow

I sit and think of things I’ve done

And of things I’ve not begun

The things I knew would help me out

But not begun because of doubt

I see these things inside my mind

But are chased away by the grind

The grind of living day to day

These are doubts that make one pay

And gives me a lot of strife

Sometime further in my life

And then I sit and think of things

And curves that the world brings

The curves from which I was safe from

But now know that they are not done

Knowing now my life’s not safe

Since I’ll never get off base

I long for things from before

So I can erase all my score

And even if I tell the world

I wouldn’t trust what it heard

Since I know I say one thing

I’d go and the opposite thing

I know that I’m on shaky ground

And I’ll lose on the next round

These have caused most my fears

My life’s not what it’s about

So I sit and gaze across the sea

And hearing sounds inside of me

Of crashing waves upon the shore

And of doubts I’ve had before