The Quest for Wisdom
The Quest for Wisdom
What does the fear of the Lord mean in the presence of suffering? It means scary-level unconditional trust in the love of God in the midst of the darkness. The fear of the Lord is scary-level unconditional trust that God is loving you even though it doesn’t feel that way, that God is loving you even though everything around you seems dark. The fear of the Lord is scary-level unconditional trust that God loves you in spite of how it looks. It’s trusting God in the dark, trusting his love in the dark.
Let me tell you why that’s so, so important. The only way you’re really going to become better rather than worse in suffering is if you do that. I still can’t come up with a better illustration than the one Elisabeth Elliot tells about how she was staying at a farm in the highlands of Wales, a place Kathy and I have been to, basically. Not the farm, but in that valley.
She was staying with these farmers who had a lot of sheep. One time every year, the sheep had to be dipped into a big vat of antiseptic. Otherwise, the sheep would be literally eaten alive by parasites and insects. When Elisabeth Elliot watched the process by which these sheep were being put into the vat, she started to feel rather sympathetic to them. Here’s how it looked.
To paraphrase, she says, “One by one the shepherd would seize the sheep as they struggled to climb out of the vat. If they tried to climb out of the vat on the other side, Mack the sheep dog would run around and snarl and snap in their faces to force them back under. If they tried to climb up the ramp toward John the shepherd, he would catch them, spin them around, force them under again, and hold them ears, eyes, and nose totally submerged.
As I watched him do this, I realized I’d had many experiences in my life that made me feel very sympathetic to those sheep. A number of times I felt that the Great Shepherd, the Lord, was doing the very same thing to me. He was holding me underneath. I felt I was drowning, and when I asked, I didn’t get a word of explanation.”
Let me tell you why that metaphor is so good. If I was a shepherd and I saw my sheep feeling like, “You’re killing me! You’re killing me …” You know, you love your sheep, so you’d want to give them an explanation. So go ahead. Just try. Try to give the sheep the explanation. I can guarantee you something. They will not be consoled by anything you say. Why? Because they’re sheep and you’re a shepherd. It’s a different order of reality. Yet if those sheep don’t trust that shepherd, they’re going to die.
The Bible says he’s the Great Shepherd and we’re sheep, and we know this in our minds. It all makes sense, doesn’t it? Intellectually, metaphorically, it all makes sense, and then we find ourselves being held under, eyes, ears, nose, and we feel like, “I have to come up or I’m going to die,” and he won’t let us up. Yet if we don’t trust our Shepherd in the dark, we are going to die.
If you can trust the Shepherd in the midst of the pain, it will make you wiser. It will make you better. It will make you humbler. It will make you more sympathetic. It will make you better in every way. My question, then, finally is … How do you do it? Here’s how you do it. Remember how I said a minute ago Lewis had this wonderful metaphor in which he said if God exists, then we would relate to God the way Hamlet relates to Shakespeare? Hamlet would only understand anything about Shakespeare if Shakespeare wrote some information about himself into the play.
Guess what? We are, in a sense, in a play, and we have the great Playwright, God, but he didn’t just write into our history some information about himself. That would be wisdom, yeah, but he wrote himself into the play in the place of Jesus Christ. When Jesus Christ says, “I am the way, the truth, and the life …” Truth. What he is saying is not just, “I’m a true person,” but “I am the Truth personified.” He’s saying, “I’m not just a wise person; I am wisdom personified.”
Now there’s somebody who has absolutely been submerged, who is absolutely being held under. He went under, but he went under not just a vat of antiseptic. He didn’t just go under our ordinary suffering. He went under the very divine justice, divine wrath. He was essentially sent to hell. When you see him being true to you in the dark, you can be trusting of his love, because there’s the ultimate example of it, and there’s the ultimate proof of it.